13th June. 2012. - Black Day!

It is with profound sorrow, sadness and regret that I inform you of the death of my most-loving and dear Father-in-law, Mr. Balasubramanian. He died peacefully to his last and long battle with cancer, day before yesterday - June 13, 2012. The cremation took place yesterday at Shantigiri on the banks of Bharathapuzha River, at 11.00 a.m.

I am deeply saddened yet gratified that he is now in a place of no disease or fighting for survival. May the Lord bless the departed soul with Eternal Peace. 

Mathrubhumi and Malayala Manorama - News.

20+ Weeks. Anomaly Scan.

Dear hun,

It was a treat to our eyes to see you again today. Today we saw you sucking your thumb and also patting onto mommy's uterine wall. You look so cute in there. Doctor says that you are perfectly fine for your age and that you are defect-free. That was such music to my ears. I dont have words to explain!!

I only wish Acchan was also there to share this happiness. Till the last USG he was there right here with us. Sigh.

Love you so so much my cutie-pie.

Pops.

20 Weeks

Dearest Hun,

I am sorry for you to have gone through this terrible loss. Words fail me to explain what mommy is going through at this moment. I am heart broken too, but nothing compares to what she is enduring. She wouldnt cry loud and she wished she could just mourn to the irreplaceable loss she's had - but she's worried that would affect you. Your mom is a very strong woman my child. She is a fighter but with a heart of gold. Your mom has never failed to inspire me from the moment I met her. Daddy always tries to be worthy of her love - a love that knows no limits.

You obviously are hearing people around you crying and speaking with a heavy heart, in contrast to all those joyous voices you'd heard till then, but baby - thats exactly the curve life follows. And its how we tread on these rough patches that decide what we are made up of, or what we'll eventually be.

Please pray for your mommy, ammomma and maasi.. They need so much inner strength. Also pray for your acchachan and acchaama. They are equally heart broken. How wouldn't they be - your Ammacchan was such a great man. He would have loved you so much if he were around when you came.

Hang in there safe and tight my lil one - because out here its going to be a bumpy ride.

Kisses and love,

Dadda.

Happy Father's Day - Thank you Dad(s).

I want to take a moment out to thank two of the most important people in my life on this day. 

My Acchan, who is now in heaven and is watching over us to give us courage and make sure that we dont lose our way. I will always always be grateful for you for trusting in me so as to give me your precious daughter as my wife. I will never ever forget what a wonderful and gentle man you were - always smiling, always forgiving, always loving and never complaining. These are values I kept imbibing from you every single day you were with us. And I would be a more than blessed if I could become half of what you were in that qualities you had. I miss you, your absence, your love - today and forever.

My Dad - for being the light of my life. My inspiration. My trust. My protector. My guide. My God. Thank you for making me what I am today. Thank you for always giving me the best of everything no matter what sacrifices you had to make to provide me with those. Daddy, I have and always will love you in a way I can't explain with words. You have been, are and will always be my HERO. My Daddy.

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY to the both of you. Everyday is father's day for children with dads like you around.

Goodbye Accha... I miss you so much!

Mr. Balasubramanian (Mani)

It is with profound sorrow, sadness and regret that I inform you of the death of my most-loving and dear Father-in-law, Mr. Balasubramanian. He died peacefully to his last and long battle with cancer, day before yesterday - June 13, 2012. The cremation took place yesterday at Shantigiri on the banks of Bharathapuzha River, at 11.00 a.m.

I am deeply saddened yet gratified that he is now in a place of no disease or fighting for survival. May the Lord bless the departed soul with Eternal Peace.

18 Weeks.

Dear hun,

Today mommy and I were calling you all sorts of names and wondering if you would respond to any of them by showing some movement in there. But you did not. I keeping checking up the internet and various other books to see when we'll know that you are a big baby now - and they all give varied answers, none of which is true obviously, since you haven't kicked. Your granny says that it would take an other 4 weeks for you to kick as your mom has a very strong in her abs. Anyways, daddy is going to wait till then!! :)

Lately you must have heard a lot of aunt Divya's voice right? She's a darling. Whenever daddy needed someone right from college Divya aunty was always there for me. She was a friend, sibling, companion, guide, study partner and a brilliant listener since then and till now. We all need to have our best friends baby. When daddy was in college, other boys in college used to smirk about the idea of best friends. They said that Best Friends were a concept of the past, of school. But I never thought it that way. I always had my best friends and still hold on to most of them. Divya aunty has almost always been on the list and the times she hasn't, we've been fighting like all close buddies do. Baby, I know Divya aunty will be the aunty you'd love to go and spend your holidays with and discuss your secrets with because she's a darling and one of a kind. A single piece. And she cant wait to see you as much as us.

While you are hanging in there, I hope you are listening to the few prayers we have and communicating the same to God. Please do that baby. The prayers we have are more for others than for us, and doing that we'll all be blessed twice. Just listen to the prayers in mummy's chest and you'll know what I am talking about.

That's all for now baby. Kick soon!! ;)

Love,

Appa. :)

17 Weeks

Dearest lil baby,

Both mummy and I can see that you are growing quickly in there cos mummy's tummy is finally showing. The baby bump has finally come. And daddy finds it so cute, though mummy says she misses her "figure". Imagine!!

Yesterday, both of us took you on a long drive to the beach. We wanted you to hear the mystic noise of the waves. We wanted you to know how the sound would be like of water gushing onto the sand. Mummy even  sat down on the sand so that the water would come and tickle you and go away. But I presume you wouldnt have felt much in there, because you are surrounded by water on all sides. Lol.

Mommy with her friends on the beach.

We know that you can hear everything in there now. Your ear ossicles must have developed so well. It must be  such a blessing for you to sit in there and listen to the sweet voice of mummy all the time. You hear our Brownie and Bambi too in there, dont you? We wonder how it would be when they meet you and you meet them. I am sure you all will love one another cos you know them and their voices so well already.

I see that mom isnt eating much. Does that leave you hungry hun? If its a yes, gimme a hint and I shall force feed mommy, ok?

Alright baby, once again - love you and cant wait to have you downloaded.

Much love,

Daddy. :)

Do you like music, baby?

Vandana Srinivasan

Dear baby,

The past few days we have made you listen to all kinds of music. Mummy and I have lately exposed you a lot to Vandana Srinivasan's voice, cos mommy just cant get enough of her songs. She also wishes that you could sing like her. There's a magic in her voice we feel. Dont you think so too baby? But daddy wishes that you'd be just as good as your mother and that'll make you a rockstar too.

Rocking to DJ AB

As you know all three of us have been partying a lot the past week. And luckily, the DJs were all very good. As mommy swayed and dadda jumped to the music, I wonder if you were partying in there too. Mommy and daddy loves to dance, as you already know by now. You too develop a taste for it soon, because its there in your genes anyway.

That apart, things look fine out here in the world outside.

Till we talk next, loads of love and poochies.

Daddy.